Motherhood: A Blessing - Chapter 12

..... I screamed "Hey Ganpati Bappa!!!"..... and soon after that i heard a tiny voice..... yes!!! that was ANUSHKA!!!!..... The doctor placed her on me...... and i forgot everything..... the pain, the stress....... there were tears in my eyes..... she was beautiful..... she was perfect...... she looked like her father..... she had big eyelashes.... she was pink..... she had lots of hair..... she was crying and when she was on my chest i hold her and said,"everything's gonna be fine.... u r with ur mom".... Ramanuj also started crying..... He was also a father now.... Doctors asked him to cut the umbilical cord.... when he was hesitating doctors said " when ur wife can give birth, you shud do atleast this".... so he cut the cord..... i didnt really knew what was happening all of a sudden.... before few hours i was just ME..... but now i was a MOTHER,.....

It was an amazing feeling.... they took Anushka and cleaned her..... they weighed her, measured her height and head circumference..... she was crying and my heart ached for her..... i kept on asking the doctors when will i feed her..... but the doctor said that its gonna take few minutes.... i still had to deliver the placenta..... so by that time i had no option..... Ramanuj was with her all the time..... He saw and recorded her first bath.... he didnt understand where he should be.... with me or Anushka.... but i told him that be with Anu so atleast one of us sees what was going on with her...... then they gave me MY BABY..... she was hungry and was licking my face..... i felt so weird..... it was a very good feeling..... then they nurses took me to my room..... where i fed Anushka for the first time..... they taught me different ways of feeding.... it was difficult at first but slowly and gradually it was all getting normal..... It was ok that night but the next day as i woke up i saw Anushka near me and I started crying..... I was thinking that now my life's gonna be upside down..... having a baby changes everything..... i thought now how will i take care of her.... she's going to be with me all the time.... how m i going to manage...... one of the doctors came for my checkup and asked me how was i feeling..... i hesitated and discussed with her that i was feeling this way..... she said that it was perfectly normal.... since the hormones in the body change rapidly this type of behaviour is pefectly normal.... then i was quiet relieved..... but i used to cry every now and then....

to be continued.....